Feeling really happy about my #remixday today #TGIF YAY for attaining #simplegoals !! (Taken with Instagram)
Day 59: Great Success
So yesterday, when I told you that I wanted to mix today, I meant it. Although I got off to a reallly SLOW start.
Today when I woke up late, I lay in bed for a while and just thought about all that I had promised myself that I would do today. The list wasn’t long just…BIG. I haven’t taken a day to Remix for about a month now and the feeling that I had left it for too long was starting to overwhelm me. I don’t like feeling like I’m missing something or messing it up, so that was not something that I was happy with.
So when I saw my day off coming up, I knew that I had to make the most of it.
And I’m glad that I did, even if I lay in bed for half and hour longer than I should have and made myself a full breakfast - bacon and eggs, tea and toast. I realize now that these things were not truly keeping me from my work; rather they were prepping me for it. I needed to fuel myself up for the day because there was a lot of uncertainty that went into my process.
I had to fix how shiny my last formula had been and rework what I had done, while also multiplying my formula to make it a bit larger. What I ended up doing was agonizing over simple math, because as you may have noticed, I’m a total Right Brainer and I love to idealize and dream and think in terms of the whole (like I do when I write), instead of breaking things down categorically into rationalized and analytic parts. And I’m ok with that - now.
After googling my mental math conundrum, I had to stop and get myself back into positive work mode (hey I’m not perfect). The resulting sign I drew says this - “Get Back To It! You’re Doin’ It Girrrlllll!” - because truthfully, I was feeling a little down in the dumps about my apparent lack of mathematical skills. I know myself to be a resilient person though and figured what the hell, eventually I’m going to have to come to terms with not excelling at math, and this seems as good a time as any.
By the end of my process, I had tested my product on myself a multitude of times along the way, washed my face just as many times, went outside to check it under true sunlight and taken tons of pictures. And finally, I am actually really happy with it. There is only one thing I may remix to correct again but that’s small beans compared to how I feel when I’m wearing my own, handmade, loose and organic(!!!) mineral foundation. See, there I go again being all Right Brained (but way happier)
In any case, the lesson I learned today was to not give up, no matter what you think your own foibles may be. They will come to you, at a decidedly quick pace, because at some point your gonna have to deal with them and now is the best time to kick em’ where it hurts!