Forgot my makeup today #noworries cuz I know I’m still #beautiful (Taken with Instagram)
Day 93: Liberated or Naked?
So I have another confession to make. I forgot to put on my makeup today. I didn’t grab my makeup bag as I was on my way out the door. Halfway to Kipling Station, I realized that it was too late to turn back. (Normally I do it in my car while driving to the subway, you know, to save time in the morning.)
Now two things. Yes I can drive a vehicle while applying my loose mineral foundation and blush, eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara. And yes I’m fully aware of the potential illegality of doing so. But until they write a law that says application of makeup is a misdemeanor of such proportion to warrant a ticket or jail time, then I’m going to go ahead and do it in my car, maybe while I’m driving down the street or sitting at a red. It saves me time!
Which brings me to the other matter. I have no makeup on today, whatsoever, at all. Nothing in my bag either. And I can’t lie and say I feel totally liberated or naked. I think at best I feel a sense of otherness, not attributed to a negative correlation between makeup and my looks but because now I’m hyper aware of people looking at my face and their reactions. It’s an interesting dichotomy.
On one hand I could feel a sense of liberation. Feeling free to go without the makeup because I think my skin has gotten better, more refined looking and I don’t need it. But that would be a lie. I don’t wear makeup because I’m trying to hide. I wear it because I love it. I love how it makes you feel, how every look can change your mood, your outlook. I love blending and shading and playing my features up. So liberated yes but not entirely.
On the other hand I could just feel naked. I could allow my insecurities about my skin, my face really show through and not want to feel 100% awesome today. When in reality I don’t feel that way either. The reality is that I love my face. I feel a strong connection to the way I look because I think I’m beautiful. And I tell myself that on a regular basis. Not because my boyfriend doesn’t tell me that I’m beautiful, he does, but because I believe it to be central to my whole conception of Green Beauty and of being a real woman in a real society in today’s slightly critical, modern world.
I want to feel as though I am somewhere between “liberated” and “naked” because that in between place positions me perfectly for my brand, Urban Minerals. I think a woman has the right to wear makeup whenever she wants to, free from societies judgments of her choices. I feel that a woman should be able to play with her makeup however she wants and if one day it doesn’t happen and she forgets like me or doesn’t want to put any on at all, well that’s perfectly fine too.
Urban Minerals is created for that woman who knows herself and recognizes her own beauty in whatever form it comes in. Some days look and feel different from others but the bottom line remains that I, She, You, We ARE beautiful. Not wearing makeup today just means that I have another day to understand the women out there who don’t wear makeup and why, and trust me, I get it. Y'all don’t need it. And I don’t need it. But the difference is that I love it. And if I love it, I’m going to wear it, in all the colours under the rainbow, for all to see my mastery, and there shouldn’t be any judgment coming back my way, especially when I don’t wear makeup that clogs my pores, or does damage to my skin because of preservatives or ages me because I put too much on, and uses organic ingredients wherever possible.
So today is a day for you ladies out there who recognize your own beauty and do what comes naturally to you, and to me and all those ladies out there who love putting on their blush and mascara, because of the way that makes us feel. .
Be you, be real and always recognize in the mirror the real beauty that’s staring back at you.